Ouch!!!

No Diet Coke

I am well on the way!

know how I know??

I thought I was going to the

emergency room

for the over the

TOP

terrible

no good for

nothing

HEADACHE!!!

really

I thought it was some awful disease

Bambambam!!!

I was resting at about 3 in the afternoon

and my head hurt to bad to stay on the pillow

and it dawned on me

No Caffeine

NONE

for over 24 hours and that was probably it

This morning I made sure to have 2 cups of coffee

and so far

I feel much better (o:

who knew it could be so painful to get

healthy?

Tears

Oh

My sweet sweet tender hearted girl

Grandma sooo

feels for you!!!

because she cried her share of tears in life

over the years I have learned to

STUFF

the tears deep down inside

(which is not a healthy thing)

so I say to you

"Go ahead and cry"

My sweet heart is in fourth grade. She is almost 10. She was staying at my house and I let her use the computer for 30 minutes. She was either skyping (which I don't even know how to do) or messaging a friend. This is one of her best friend in a 'pack' of girls. The girl had been absent for a few days and told Kyla that she is never coming back to that school. Her Mom was letting her change schools because all the girls (except Kyla) are so mean to her. Well, of course Kyla was over the top upset. How could she survive without her 'nice' friend? I asked her how bad could it be really? She blows her nose and chokes out..."Grandma. they always...everyday... all day... call us the B word and other bad words." I was shocked. I was speechless. Folks...I don't even remember a High School girl calling anyone that word. I know it is said all the time now... but might I add... I hate it. How did I get her over this. I let her cry for awhile. Hugs and tender Grandma words. Then I tried to tell her something she did not want to hear. How do you know this is TRUE and not just some kind of joke. She would have none of that. I tried to tell her how hard the computer and cell phone is going to be in her life. She will have to learn to handle it. Don't ever say or do things you don't want the whole school to see or hear. Well, guess what? On Monday her friend was THERE. It had been a joke. It sure made me mad. Ky was just glad she was there. There are four girls in my Sons family. FOUR! They will all be teenagers at the same time. Oh my! What a hard world to raise daughters in.

There are no... zero...zilch...nota

Diet sodas in the house anymore!!!

Yikes!

Confession and Plan

This post gets NO picture.

a sad face might work

Why have I turned a blind eye (what a choice of words)

because I have had blindness in one eye

optic nutritious

A system of MS

I did regain my sight...but

Why have I not listened to warnings

my sister use to print out articles about MS being linked to

artificial sweeteners

My slap in the face wake up call

was the

TEARS

I shed while watching the movie

The Notebook

I was so sad and mad about her

memory lose

because I am so afraid it is happening to me

blunt

but true

I think all of us in the Grandma age group worry about

Alzheimer's

because it is so...

out there

out there in our friends, family, acquaintances

movie heroins

This is just ridiculous

I looked up way more info than I wanted to read

why WHY

would any of us subject ourselves to this

THREAT???

I will stop! I will. I just want to be there. Really be there for my family. I want to write stories for the girls. I have so many stories waiting in my head. How can I do that if I don't remember them? I lost 40 pounds five years ago so I could feel better and maybe live longer, so why would I continue with a habit that can cause so much damage.

So there you have it.

My confession...

my plan for a healthier

Future.

First loose tooth

Sweet little girl

Granddaughter of mine

you have my

heart

wrapped up in a string

in many

strings

so I think that means you will always be a part of

ME

no matter what!!

I see

I REALLY SEE

your tooth is

loose

and it is the first one

you are so excited

you can finally join the club

of

TOOTHLESS

little girls!

I have been doing much better on drinking water. It really helps to count and to know you are going to tell on yourself. I have had 2 sodas a day....not 4. I have a new reason for giving it up. I will drink what we have here though (o: I will post on that later. We went out too many times this weekend. Not good healthy food either. YIKES

Three In The Bed

There were three in the bed

and

the big one said

"MOVE OVER"

The giant puppy pushed Avery off the cushion

she would have never let her

SISTER

do that

but giant puppy has her heart

Grandma gave Giant Puppy

a stuffed ball

to play with

because she failed to bring her own toys

She treated it like a ball for 2 days

but on this night...

she had to BITE

that tag off

and she did...

and some stuffing to boot (o:

I have been trying to drink a glass of water before I can have a diet soda... I had 3 today...of each. I think it has been a wake up call to have to write this down. Embarrassing! I think that someone asked if I have been bothered health wise by my 'consumption' of this drug (OK..It is not called that, but I sure am addicted to it). I have read so many bad things about it's effects. ( affect...effect???) Memory problems. Hello...I am plagued by that anyway. Some things say... it can make MS symptoms worse. My health conscious friends say "What on Earth are you doing to yourself?" I have had a week of healthy food. Problem is sometimes I eat TOO much food.

Hearts to you

I was reading over at

a holy experience

blog

and it reminded me of my oldest son leaving for Ecuador

he would be gone almost a year

he was a ...Man

well...he said he was

at 22... a mother could question that

I am not a worrier

How would I have survived my daughter living in

Kabul Afghanistan

for almost 2 years

I do remember feeling so

lost

the day he left

I washed his bedding and folded it

that night

I sat with the fuzzy blanket on my lap

the one with the eagle

I spent 2 hours

picking the fuzz off of it

knowing he would not care

one way or the other..

I just had to do it.

and I prayed

and I gave the whole thing to God

sometimes you just have to.

I drank 3 glasses of water and 2 cokes today...I think I ate very well..I wish the scale would just AGREE with me.

This sweet little blessing and the giant puppy took a nap with me today...hearts to you!

Super Bowl

I am soooo tired! Two girls 2 days and a night. Lots of playing...play dough still entertains (o:

Why do kids have to be awake at 6:30 in the morning. I am not a morning person!!! We took them to play land (McDonalds) and we had coffee...then off to feed the geese at a frozen pond (pictures later). Rented a red Box movie (Mars Needs Moms) to watch after lunch. Then it was off to my daughters for the Super Bowl party and a Birthday party. We dropped the girls off at 9:00...and I am off to bed (o:

2 water...4 pop (not making much headway here).

Only one Birthday cupcake and I stayed away from the chips and dip (o:

A short walk at the pond. Too cold and NO sunglasses made me turn around (o: